Who, What, Where Am I?

Hello to all my dear readers! Long-time haa!
I am sure many interesting, amazing things must have been happening in all of your lives!
Well 2019 has come to an end... and I have a lot..so much..so so much to share with you all
Today! I wanna share my heart..my true thoughts..my feelings with you all........

A decade has gone by.. I made friends..lost friends..found love...lost love...inspired people...destroyed people..developed maturity...tension...thoughts....hobbies...responsibilities...etc etc etc....
Isn't it truly amazing to see so many changes in us? I mean imagine 10 years! 10 years guys!
I am literally bewildered, confused, shocked, impressed, amazed thinking what I had evolved into since 2010.
From
Mommy! feed me to Amma! let me feed you
Daddy! Buy this (Draining his pocket) to Dad! I topped...I earned..I wanna fly
Initially, I thought "Wow! I have become a MAN from a BOY!"
However, recently I read something beautiful from the Mahabharatha (Balarama asking Suyodhana, Ajaya: Epic of the Kaurava Clan by Anand Neelkantan)
"Suyodhana! I will give you a method to discover the dream hiding in your heart. What makes you passionate, angry, irritated, frustrated, happy and sad at the same time? What makes you feel alive?"
(I will give the breath-taking answer by one of the most dreadful villains of the Hindu mythology, a little while later)
Frankly, I don't know about that dream, but I was totally frustrated and mad at the writing.. I mean seriously?? What kind of nonsense, shit is this? How can such a thing exist?
But...but...but something did happen later
I started thinking deep, what makes me happy and sad at the same time? As if like a chain reaction it lead to a complex maze of thoughts and soon enough I was desperately trying hard to find an answer for the following questions, amidst everything happening around me
Who am I? What is my dream? What do I wish for? What did I do in my life? What kind of a person have I become? What is it I really want? What is my strength? What is my weakness? What is it I actually love? What is it I actually hate? Do I have a balance in my life? and finally, the biggest question that has almost completely buried me What is my role or duty towards life?
My mind was kinda choked. I was frantically searching for a ray of light among all the darkness. I started feeling fatigued. I found vague answers but nothing quenched my thirst for those answers.
I got so much engrossed. A turmoil of emotions, a war between feelings, a roller-coaster ride of events was taking place inside me.
Slowly, I snapped out of confusion and regained composure. Yet, my mind was still blank..just like an empty page after striking down all the materialistic answers I told myself......I felt helpless
And then slowly I restarted myself from the source...the question
I am passionate about becoming the ultimate and highly knowledgable in my field.
I am angry when I fail to outdo myself.
I am frustrated when I stumble down due to my reckless mistakes.
I am happy when I know I am a step ahead.
I am sad when I leave my loved ones in pursuit of knowledge.
And later I questioned myself again Is this really what I want?
Steadily, rhythmically I started focusing and trying to streamline my thoughts.
Gradually, all the answers started coming in and I soon realized that
Life is not about toiling hard for an imaginary fruit waiting at the end. It is a journey, a journey of learning, loving, winning, enjoying, motivating, falling, fighting, compromising and thinking.
In front of the infinity of the ocean that lies in front of you, your problems are nothing
In front of the solid nature of the earth that you stand upon, your ego is nothing
In front of the blazing brightness of the fire that you see, your fame is nothing
In front of the gush brute force of the air around you, your superiority is nothing
In front of the vastness of the unexplored space above you, you have still a lot to learn
I would like to tell you that.............................................................................................
Remember! enjoy your life to the fullest. Go with the flow of time. Live in the Present. Learn from the Past. Lead the way dynamists. Be unique. Be a gamechanger.
Jot down the qualities you don't like about yourself. Spend time with your conscience. Tame it and always strive to be the better version of yourself. This new year create a resolution to outdo yourself.
 Learn to observe nature and learn from your surroundings.
And now for the answer given by Suyodhana
"I felt angry, irritated, happy and sad seeing the untouchables and our chaturvarna system of life."

Enjoy my dear friends. Wish you all a Happy New year 2020. May this new era bring everyone a life they desire for.

I would like to thank these people for teaching me, bearing me and making this decade of mine beautiful. Forever these people will stay in my heart.
In Chronological order:

Aadi Jain   Saurabh M  Arbaz Md   Prem Kumar S   Suhitha R   Jaideep    Abhinav   Pallavi V
Aravind B V  Shivtej V   Gokul K   Premchand P C  Aishav C    Disha S   Homa S
Rithwik K  Abishek S   Ramanuja N  Leela Kiran    Vishwanth N   Akhil K    Sivanand K
Pragnya K   Meghana Y  Srividya P   Bharath B   Geethika M   Chandana B   Nawaj S
Akhil S   Akhil B  Vijay  Raatan VS  Ashwin S   Sruthi K  Varun V  Yeshwanth  Aasritha M
Shruthi S   Sai Teja T   Kathir T  Narasimha Anna
My sincere apologies, if I had missed anyone..............

Last, but definitely the 4 most important people of my life who always stood by me and supported me.....
My late Grandma Mrs.G.Jaya
My Father Mr.G.Sreekumar
My Mother Mrs.G.Kavitha
My Brother G.S.Praneeth


I LOVE YOU ALL

Please let me know all your thoughts and ideas in the comments section....................
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